OKAY, OKAY OKAY, LET ME FIRST START WITH....
1. I got my grade sheet(?)/karakterblad back AND OH MY FRIGGIN GHANDI, MY GRADES FREAKING IMPROVED!!!! I GOT MY FIRST A+/12!!!! Q U Q ~
The rest are lots of B's/10-7. Okay, here in Denmark we use a weird grade-system, so I'm not sure if I "translated" them right, but I'm damn sure I at least got A+!!!! 8D
My grades wasn't exactly bad before, at least not compared to my classmates, it was pretty much in the middle, BUT NOW IT UPGRADED EVEN MORE ASJHSJKDK!!!! I will try my best, and hope I can keep upgrading, till I can't upgrade anymore xD In my dreams.. XD
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAND, THE SECOND THING!!!!!!
2. Okay, this one is pretty "WHAT-DA-FADA-FAKIN'-FAK!?!" BUT I WILL GO TO A BOARDING SCHOOL/KOSTSKOLE AFTER I FINISH THIS SCHOOLYEAR!! 8D Long story short, my family-relationship is pretty... not so good. Bla bla bla, lots of stuff happened, the municipality/kommune offered me to go to a boarding school. My mother didn't really care, and said "yes", but my father... I think my mother on purpose made a trap, to let my father decide, and guess what, he really hated the idea. He thought I would become a alcoholic, whore, smoke hash, take drugs, hang out with criminals and lots of other stupid stuff. Riiiiiight, of course I will do that -_- But yea, today they had a talk with um.. the important people from the municipality(?), aaaaaaaaaaand, now THEY HAVE FRIGGIN AGREED TO IT. YES, YES, YES, YEEEEEEEEEES!!!!!!! For fudgin' ONCE, something good happens to me! There's still a "long time" to it, but hey, it's in less than a year 8D And I can start looking forward to it from now on 8D OMG, I WILL HAVE MY OWN FRIGGIN ROOM! Or, I think I will, if not, I'm actually used to share room anyways. xD ("fun" fact; I have always shared room with my sister. I still do now, which can be friggin annoying at times. But I still love you sister ~ > 3 <
) I can design the room I want, and put the posters I want sduhjfjsdkf, it will be PERFECT. 8D If I get my own room
A study from Denmark, shows that 97% of all kids in Denmark have their own room, from the age 10-17 I think. Guess who's one of the 3%? :/
Maybe I will finally be able to "enjoy life". My parents can be really strict, and would only allow me to be with friends outside for maybe 2-3 hours, once in the whole week. .__. I felt like a caged bird. And the worst is, when I come home from a really stressful day, where I have been to school and job, and then come home to screaming littlesisters, and a sister who has put the volume for the TV pretty high. "Just listen to music", haha, STFU, sometimes I just want completely silence, and I rarely get that. - 3 - Okay, back to the topic, I'M GO TO A FRIGGIN BOARDING SCHOOL!!!!! 8D
And it's my birthday soon. I don't know if it's good. I feel old. XD I will turn 16. In 'Murica, they go cray-cray over that "sweet 16", some get a car, a huge party and stuff. But well, I don't know what I actually wish. Most of my wishes are "unbuyable" things, such as "no war", "friends" aBoyfriend*coughcough* XD. My wish has already come true, to go to a boarding school, so it's kind of like an early birthday gift, haha xD I feel like a mini-adult somehow xD 1st - because of my heigh x'D, 2nd - "sweet 16". XD
A thing I'm a little scared for.. Well, yes, of course I'm excited to go to a boarding school, it's gonna be new and different, but.. I'm actually scared of being alone there. There will be people, yes, but idk. I'm kind of used to be alone, but then again, it still feels terrible. I experienced being alone a lot, since I moved schools lots of times, and I should be "expert" in moving school now, but the truth is, I'm not. All the times I got moved to a new place, I've been extremely shy, nervous, scared, sad.. It has always been hard for me, to move to a new place. I remember when we moved city+school, and I started in my new class, and I had to introduce myself, and I was so close to cry. They all looked at me, all focus on me, people I didn't know. At that moment, I wished I could just move back to my old place, because I already missed my friends over there. But yup, I'm afriad of being lonely :/ And I will kind of cut the contact to my family. I'm on my own. I think I'm gonna miss my bigsister the most, not that I don't like my other sisters, but I've always been closest to her, and my relationship with my two other sisters aren't that good either. :/ I wished my relationship with my family was better. I wish it was naturally to just randomly hug them. Kiss them. Have a fun time, watch TV or something. Talk about everything, from funny, silly things, to serious stuff. I wish I could tell them everything. I wish that they will "accept" me, and not only at the time when I get good grades. When I show them my grades, they often just focus on "the bad ones", and not the good ones, and that makes me really sad. "Wow, I'm still a shame, because THAT one grade ruined it all, and it didn't meet their expectations for me. THIS MAKES ME SO HAPPY TO HEAR, THEREFORE I WILL STUDY WAY MORE!!" -_- My parents also had a really tough life, but.. Idk. When I visit my friend, she talks to her mother about almost EVERYTHING. It makes me happy to see that, but at the same time, I get a little envy and sad, because I wished it was the same way with my parents. I rarely speak to my parents anymore. Our conversations are often just "Good morning. Bye. I'm home. Thanks for dinner. Goodnight." :/
I don't know why I'm writing all this, I just want to let it out somewhere. There's probably still lots of questions about me, and some will might think I'm stupid and pathetic. Well, not all people have the same opinion, and that's okay. But whoever who read this far, thank you so much for spending your precious time on reading this.